God isn't finished with me yet...

We had our Ya Ya's grouping last night. These gals always make life a little easier! We are a group of broken, forgiven, some timid, some outspoken (guess which ones these are), women who love the Lord & are striving to live our lives BOLD for Him.


We are doing a Leslie Parrott study called "You matter more than you think". It is challanging at best but it gets us in the Word so that is a good thing! We never get out of there without both tears & laughter. It is such a relief to have a group of 8 women who can be totally open & non judgenmental.


I know for me it's a blessing to have cause for a long time I was a angry person. I had dealt with (or so I thought) some issues that I tried to keep to myself thinking I could handle it, & honestly up to 2 weeks ago only Ed & Tami knew this certain area in my life. One of the Ya Ya's said to me this morning "u n god certainly seem victorious now:) u r the kind of person people flock 2 because u make them feel accepted and comfortable. not alot of folks out there like that." I said well Susan, trust me I wasn't always like that, I used to be the person people ran from! I was a hateful, mean person & to be quite honest with you, those still creep up from time to time. I am not proud to say that I let them control me. However, not as often as I used to. I can tell when they are going to resurface & can usually put a stop to it but sometimes they still slip through and I usually end up hurting people that I care about. The sad thing about that is that when words are spoken & actions done, you can't take them back so even though you apologize people still remember what you said or did.


That is not the person I want to be & I know that when I do that I fail God. I do not want to be anything but a child of God. The great thing is that no matter who on this earth cannot forgive us, God always does!


He's not finished with me & I am OH SO THANKFUL for that.